Ohhhhhhhhh Mannnnnnnnnn!!!!!

Oh Boy...not good. Les called me early this morning from work. The 1996 SUV that he drives to & from his job all the way from where we live to Alsip, Ill. has kicked the bucket with no turning back. Les kept telling me that the SUV was failing. I was really concerned because he does drive far back and forth to work in heavy traffic each day. We both just knew we didn't have enough to repair all it's problems let alone enough to buy a new used SUV Well today he called and my heartbroke cause his voice sounded so defeated. Les hardly ever ever gets defeated or is negative.....the only time I truly broke because his heart was broken was when he walked into my OB'S office and tears were filling his eyes and he was sobbing and said "Lynda, our babys with Jesus". THAT day he was broken and my heart was too.... but to see my Les that way added to my hurt and loss and sadness.....then there is defeated. Today Les is defeated. He tries so hard to provide for his family and he does such a good job....but each and everytime he gets ahead just alittle...BOOM there's a huge financial problem. Most of this started with my ICU bills and our babies NICU bills and in time medical bills can wipe you out. Anyway, things are tight now, which they are for alot of people. Les just still takes it in stride, tries his very best and trusts God....(yet he still worries but doesn't place that on me or our family)....well,even with that...nope that is not enough. Now his SUV TOTALLY goes out at work. Shifts only from 1st to 3rd and will not go in reverse. The worst part is...I heard defeat in my husband's voice. The one who always tries to be strong for me, for us, for our family.....he feels so defeated. He needs his vehicle for work. He drives far, in heavy traffic and he needs to get to work. We both know we cannot finance another vehicle right now. That is meaning a used vehicle. I want him safe. Of course he can take the van if he needs to...but with 6 children he wants me to have the van here for a number of reasons. I know that he needs a vehicle.....I know we need to get only a cheap, very, very cheap used vehicle.... but when you get that...you usually don't know the person you are buying it from and I want my husband in something SAFE & RELIABLE. He travels so far, everyday, in a driving mess. I know when he feels desperate like this (which doesn't happen often but does happen) he makes quick decisions to keep us ok. Well, I don't want him making a quick decision on an unsafe vehicle that he puts his life in everyday. I know we have no money for another car now...but, I don't want him to jeopardize his safety either. Used cars are best bought from people we know. That is what I think....or a dealer, but we can't afford that now. Anyway, if you are reading what's going on in my rambling mind this far...please please pray about this vehicle situation for us. I know this isn't as important as alot of prayer requests..but if you would say a prayer, I'd appreciate it.