Good Rule to Live by................

That may be what you did YESTERDAY, It's NOT what you have to do TODAY I like this! So worth thinking about!

Christians~ Maya Angelou

Christians - When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'." I'm whispering "I was lost, Now I'm found and forgiven." When I say... "I am a Christian" I don't speak of this with pride. I'm confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide. When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not trying to be strong. I'm professing that I'm weak And need His strength to carry on. When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not bragging of success. I'm admitting I have failed And need God to clean my mess. When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not claiming to be perfect, My flaws are far too visible But, God believes I am worth it. When I say... "I am a Christian" I still feel the sting of pain. I have my share of heartaches So I call upon His name. When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not holier than thou, I'm just a simple sinner Who received God's good grace, somehow! Share this with somebody who already has this understanding, as reinforcement. But more importantly, share this with those who do not have a clear understanding of what it means to be a Christian, so that the myth that Christians think they are "perfect" or "better than others" can be dispelled

Musical and Scare

Last night I took my 11 year old daughter Elizabeth and 2 of her friends to Plainfield South High School to see "HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL". It was a nice time. The girls really enjoyed it and then we went to Westfield restaurant for cheese sticks and shakes afterwords. Lots of laughter and fun. This morning at 7:35 I was half asleep and rolled over to my right side and as I did that I immediately became very nausea and with my eyes opened my eyes just started racing back and forth....so fast and by vision was not blurry but I could not control my eyes and I could not focus on anything. My eyes just raced. I slowly rolled over to my back and felt a little bit better but still alittle nauseous...and then my phone rang and I rolled to my left side to try and get it...not even sitting up...just rolling slowly over and the same thing happened. My eyes were racing without focusing and I felt so nauseous. I slowly rolled to my back. Les just got in the shower and I yelled out to him but he couldn't hear me with the water running. I laid on my back for 7 minutes...I thought I was fine so to test....I slowly rolled to my right side and it happened again. This has NEVER happened to me before. Is it stress, anxiety, blood pressure my BP meds????? everything is the same with all those so I am not sure. I have been looking online...and it seems like it is just vertigo. I have never had that before either...maybe an inner ear infection. I just don't know. I was very scared though and I don't get scared for myself too easily. I usually always think...I'm ok. Today I was scared. I feel better now. My sinuses seem like there's pressure built so maybe that is it. If you are reading this please say another little prayer for me today. PLEASE!!! Sorry for 2 prayer requests in a row...but It really would mean alot to me. Thank you and bless you~

Ohhhhhhhhh Mannnnnnnnnn!!!!!

Oh Boy...not good. Les called me early this morning from work. The 1996 SUV that he drives to & from his job all the way from where we live to Alsip, Ill. has kicked the bucket with no turning back. Les kept telling me that the SUV was failing. I was really concerned because he does drive far back and forth to work in heavy traffic each day. We both just knew we didn't have enough to repair all it's problems let alone enough to buy a new used SUV Well today he called and my heartbroke cause his voice sounded so defeated. Les hardly ever ever gets defeated or is negative.....the only time I truly broke because his heart was broken was when he walked into my OB'S office and tears were filling his eyes and he was sobbing and said "Lynda, our babys with Jesus". THAT day he was broken and my heart was too.... but to see my Les that way added to my hurt and loss and sadness.....then there is defeated. Today Les is defeated. He tries so hard to provide for his family and he does such a good job....but each and everytime he gets ahead just alittle...BOOM there's a huge financial problem. Most of this started with my ICU bills and our babies NICU bills and in time medical bills can wipe you out. Anyway, things are tight now, which they are for alot of people. Les just still takes it in stride, tries his very best and trusts God....(yet he still worries but doesn't place that on me or our family)....well,even with that...nope that is not enough. Now his SUV TOTALLY goes out at work. Shifts only from 1st to 3rd and will not go in reverse. The worst part is...I heard defeat in my husband's voice. The one who always tries to be strong for me, for us, for our family.....he feels so defeated. He needs his vehicle for work. He drives far, in heavy traffic and he needs to get to work. We both know we cannot finance another vehicle right now. That is meaning a used vehicle. I want him safe. Of course he can take the van if he needs to...but with 6 children he wants me to have the van here for a number of reasons. I know that he needs a vehicle.....I know we need to get only a cheap, very, very cheap used vehicle.... but when you get that...you usually don't know the person you are buying it from and I want my husband in something SAFE & RELIABLE. He travels so far, everyday, in a driving mess. I know when he feels desperate like this (which doesn't happen often but does happen) he makes quick decisions to keep us ok. Well, I don't want him making a quick decision on an unsafe vehicle that he puts his life in everyday. I know we have no money for another car now...but, I don't want him to jeopardize his safety either. Used cars are best bought from people we know. That is what I think....or a dealer, but we can't afford that now. Anyway, if you are reading what's going on in my rambling mind this far...please please pray about this vehicle situation for us. I know this isn't as important as alot of prayer requests..but if you would say a prayer, I'd appreciate it.

GOD is LOVE

This afternoon I was clearing out some old magazines...and came across my "Enjoying Everyday Life" magazine and in it was an excerpt from John Bevere. I liked John in the past but the last study I read from him we (our class) had some problems with. ANYWAY,in saying that, I was reading this article and it just shows how when God's presence fills a place...satan wants in! The enemy does not care about going anywhere where God isn't. He knows he leads the way in that area already...BUT, where GOD IS WORKING... where the Heavenly Holy Spirit shows presence...THAT is where satan wants in....BAD!!!!!! So here is a bit of that article from the book "The Bait Of Satan" by John Bevere.....Just makes you think how much satan wants in.... to cause confusion and disruption where God is. (Article~~) There is a deceptive, deadly trap that imprisons countless Christians, severs relationships and widens breaches between us. It is the snare of offense, and many believers are unable to function in their calling because of the wounds and hurts they have received. They are handicapped and hindered from fulfilling their God given potential. Jesus made it very clear that it is impossible to live in this world and not have the opportunity to become offended....see Luke 17:1. If you breathe air and walk this earth, you will have a chance to become offended~~ guaranteed. Therefore, it is important for us to be prepared and armed, for our response to offense determines our future. In the New Testament it oftens describes an entrapment by the enemy. A trap needs one of two things in order to be successful...either it must be hidden, in the hope that an animal will stumble upon it, or it must be baited to lure the animal into the traps deadly jaws. Satan incorporates both of these strategies as he lays out his traps. They're hidden and baited. The enemy uses offense to bring people into captivity. Paul says... And a servant of the Lord must not quarrel but be gentle to all, able to teach, patient, in humility correcting those who are in opposition...so that they may know the truth, and that they may come to their senses and escape the snare of the devil, having been taken into captive to do his will. 2 Timothy 2:24-26 NKJV.....WOW!!! Those in quarrels or opposition fall into a trap and are held prisoner to do the devils bidding. They are unaware of their captivity and don't realize their hearts are spewing out bitter waters rather than oure. When people are deceived they believe they are right even though they aren't. ~~~~~ (end of article) Reading this article just made me remember that THAT is where satan wants to be... WHERE GOD IS......and so, he gets there by confusion, misleading, opposition, quarrels. It is times like these that I realize we need to LOOK UP...... Speak with God, hear from Him. Our God is not the God of confusion but of peace and love and forgiveness. Where there is anger and strife and confusion...that is all the enemy. It just makes me think we all need to pray for every matter so much more than we do....for EVERYTHING really...because whereever there IS PEACE...satan is waiting to attack...and where there is confusion and conflict satan has his foothold. So, either way.....we need a lot more prayer when dealing with this world, people we care about, people we love and especially when we are walking on a path we do not yet know..... PRAY!!!! God hears, God cares and God loves us all. We need prayer, we need to place everthing in God's hands in all matters in our lives and we need to speak in love..as much as is possible. Just my thoughts for today.

Dinner, Spa and Song

Last night our newly 10 year old daughter Sarah made dinner. It was her first complete dinner she needed to make start to finish.....she got to plan it, make the grocery list, help shop for it, prepare it, set the table and clear. It was great! YUMMY and Sarah did a great job too. She made chicken in a pasta creamy garlic sauce with spinach leaves and Sarah's desert was choc chip cookies with vanilla ice cream in the middle. It was so good and Sarah worked hard to make this great meal for all of us. Next time it is Elizabeth's turn. Today was spa day at MOPS and I had alot of fun. Basically I did nothing "spa" .... but I got to talk and drink yummy coffee and paint my (almost) nails and just laugh. It felt good and refreshing. I enjoyed it so much. Sometimes the most important things are just taking the time to BE and not always to DO. So.......DO~BE~DO~BE~DO...to you!!!!!

A Day to be carried

Man I would LOVE this!!! To be carried today like this picture of Sarah carring Rebecca. Today and yesterday have been tough for me. I feel filled with so much wonder and concern about if I am doing everything I need to do...and that I'm not... so there is guilt and then I feel I need to start pulling in the reins on our children because I cannot believe the difference between the age of 10 years and 11 years. To me, in my heart, it has become a point of crisis because I just cannot let this go. I want my children respectful and I want them to voice their views but RESPECTFULLY. I see a change in my 11 year old and it is amazing how it trickles down to all my children. What they think she can do they think they can do also. Things sure need to be nipped in the bud. I think this is alot my fault because I am so careful with my blood pressure cause it really can make me so sick that I have let too many things slide. Also..... my oldest daughter who is only 11 is experiencing a new level in our church family and it has opened her up to a whole new world that I need to know more about so I can decide if this is the path for her. I want to protect her.....I want her to have that promise of the Garden of Eden for as long as possible. I feel I am failing miserably right now and that is even more reason why I need to be healthy....lose weight, get this BP down so I can be active with my children. Right now one quick move and I feel ready to faint...I know that is all BP related and so that is why I am so desperate to lose weight, get healthy..... and be able to have that energy for day to day endurance. I am reading a wonderful book now.....by the Rabbi that is on the "TLC" show "Salom in the home" which means PEACE in the home. It is called "Parenting with Fire". I love this book. I got it Saturday and I am half way through, and for me.....that is GOOD!!! I like so much of what he says and how he explains things. I also am having my weekly Dr. Dobson & Pastor Bob reinforcement through a Sunday School class at church. Plus so many of my friends are having things going on that just tears my heart apart. Put it all together and we must find some joy in the midst of all this. Anyway tonight I am having coffee with a friend. I know we won't solve any world problems or even my problems today...but I need a word from God.... I need a "I'm here and I care and you are doing fine". There is just so much to do in daily life and only so much time in a day and sometimes I just wonder am I doing the things GOD WANTS ME TO DO??? I mentioned last week that I need a daily "to do list" from God to me...so that I WOULD KNOW if I am doing the things that mattered and if I am fighting the good fight or just depleting all my energy for things that don't matter. Todays a day where I feel it piled on high and when one problem is solved...if I walk into another room, answer the phone or check the bank account there will be 1,000 more!!!! God wanted us to walk in peace......... today peace is so far. so far..so far...so far

Thoughts to think about friends

~ Is it important to have alot of friends or a few good ones & why? ~Does a good friend have to be similar to you? (e.g. same age, gender. likes & dislikes etc.) why or why not? ~What do you expect from your friends? How should they treat you? ~What do you do for your friends? How do you treat them? ~What are some of the challenges of making new friends?

The Ultimate Gift

After both Church services today, while Les was putting up our new screen door I decided to take my Elizabeth, Sarah and Hannah to Movies 10 and see "The Ultimate Gift". It is by Fox Faith Films and I got my tickets on line through Fandingo so that part of each ticket sale went to St. Jude's Children's Research Hospital. Anyway the 4 of us girls went and we ALL enjoyed it so much. All my daughters kept saying was "Mommy I really liked that movie". ALL of them said that! I enjoyed it too so much! I don't think they talked once durning the movie. I was amazed cause I really wasn't sure about them paying attention. Do you know what the ULTIMATE GIFTS are??? Well I learned just so please let me share... Gift of Friends, Gift of Giving, Gift of Family, Gift of Dreams, Gift of Work, Gift of Laughter, Gift of Money, Gift of Learning, Gift of a Day, Gift of Love, Gift of Problems, and the Gift of Gratitude. Did I mention we laughed, we cried, we wondered. It was so nice. I don't know if you will like this movie or not...but, Elizabeth, Sarah, Hannah and I loved it and we will talk about it in class tomm. If you want to see it ..it is now playing at Movies 10. To me it was very good and more than that...it was a learning experience and it was so refreshing.

Tale of two sons

Every picture tells a story and this one certainly does. These are two of my children....two sons.......Joshua 4 and Samuel 6. The way you see them in the picture captures EXACTLY who they are. Both of my boys are total cuddle bugs. They come up to me several times a day for kisses or to cuddle with me. I just cannot put into words how much I love that. Makes me think that when I go to God he feels the same way about me....."Oh Lynda, you came to me ...how much I love that!" Anyway, Samuel my 6 year old has a kind heart. For the most part he speaks gently and close up to you and he even does his chores without ANY reminding. If I call him he comes right to me...no yelling from another room..."I'll be right there" He GETS there....usually the first time I call. He thinks of others and makes me feel that I along with God set the sun in the sky each day and place the moon out at night. He is (for the most part) obedient, concerned and caring. My little Joshua shows his love too.....Joshua is always stealing my heart... but he will try to weasal his way out of any situation. "SHARING"..... is NOT Joshua's thing right now...... when I call him........his reply is ..."ahhhhh what mommy!?!!?" When I ask Joshua to do something that he doesn't want to... like the giant request of "Joshua put your shoes on" he leans back, relaxes all his muscles and becomes a jellyfish with the look of "are you kidding me?" He also, just like Samuel, comes up to me several times a day for kisses and hugs or just to sit in my arms and cuddle while we watch a cartoon...or read a story. These are not problems. I don't need solutions. This is just a reflection of how two children, two sons....same daddy & mommy....same family, same home, same type of day, same influences....can be so different. I think it is confusing at times... many times...cause how you parent one is NOT how you can count on parenting the others. I think it is sweet though and a conviction of what an awesome God we have. I mean, with all the billions of people in the world...God could have taken households and said.....Ok now...."This is the PATIENT family, This is the CRABBY family, this is the CONCERNED family, this is the GIVING family, This is the "WHINEY" family....and our God would still have all the bases covered and all the different personalities accounted for. Our God....is more awesome then that though....He can make EACH AND EVERY MEMBER of EACH & EVERY FAMILY different in their looks and personalities and gifts and journey...He can because He is awesome and that is so sweet and beautiful. ~I am so blessed to have my children.....so very blessed. Both my babies on earth and also in Heaven. I love these children more than I can even express and it comforts my heart deeply to know that God loves them even more and that they are gifts from Him to me. Each beautifully wrapped, unique and personal. Each with a learning experience for us included inside. So this morning...when I saw this picture of Joshua and Samuel in the slideshow on my computer...it made me stop and think and reflect on what an Awesome God we have and how thankful I am for the beautiful gifts He has trusted me with. I don't always do the right thing with these precious gifts...but I am learning and growing...and so are my boys...God's boys...OUR boys!!!! Thank you Jesus!!!! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ THOUGHT FOR TODAY~~~The simplicity in the life of a believer is found in his dependence upon the Lord. (AMEN!)

Throw UP really gets me DOWN

5:45 AM!!!!!!! Or was it 6:45 AM!!!!! No, No, NO...I'm pretty sure it was 5:45AM. I was sleeping....dreaming the good dream.... something about being on the OPRAH show for being "Mother of the DAY" yeah that was it! Anyway, I was so peaceful and warm and cozy and I remember Les kissing my forehead goodbye at 4:45am like he does every morning before he leaves for work...then I cuddle up warmer and snooze off once again till it is a DECENT time to wake up!!! WELLLLLLLLLL....not this morning. At 6:45 (but I am sure it was 5:45AM) as I was sleeping, cozy and warm and dreaming of sugar plum fairies....I hear a small voice and a small body follow while climbing into my bed saying very sweetly..."mommy, mommy" and as I tired to open one eye I heard AND SAW.........UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH throw up coming at me!!!! All over my pillow, my sheets my cozy comforter... and all by...YES (you guessed it) my adorable Rebecca Grace pictured above!!! Then she jumped out of my bed and ran into my bathroom vomiting on my carpet all the way. I laid there partly thinking..."Am I dreaming...Yes!!! YES!!!don't worry this is ONLY a dream" and thinking...."Well, this is not how I even began to plan my day...what a special thing for my little girl to wake up early and do this just for me! To make this very long story short....much shorter...cause I am tired, it's late, and well,....throwing UP really gets me DOWN.......Did you know that 5 out of 6 of MY children agree vomiting 1,000 times in the day while mommy is home is so much more fun then vomiting even once in the evening while daddy is home and mommy goes out! TRUE!!!!! They vomited all day....ALLLLLLLLLLLLL DAY. I left at 6pm for Panera...NOT ONE VOMIT for daddy. It is 12:20AM now and I have been home since 11:30. AT exactly 11:45 2 of my daughters took their FIRST vomit of the evening. BUT.....BUT, not ONE since I left. I'm not feeling warm and cozy about their love for me right now. But that my friends was my entire Thursday.......so the next time you deal with vomit......ANY VOMIT...think of this story....think of me and remember...Throwing UP, REALLY gets me DOWN!!!

HOME Where They Belong

This is our heart for homeschooling.

Worry, or Worship?

Scripture "We have no power against this large army that is attacking us. We don't know what to do, so we look to you for help." (2 Chronicles 20:12) The enemy would love to get you worrying instead of worshiping God. When the devil brings you thoughts of worry, anxiety and fear, let them be a reminder for you to thank God that His answer is on the way. Say, "Devil, thank you for reminding me," and then say, "Father, I thank You that You are at work on my behalf." That's what King Jehoshaphat did. The people of Judah were surrounded by three major armies. It didn't look like they had a chance. This godly king was probably bombarded with thoughts of fear and anxiety. But he gathered the people together, lifted his eyes toward heaven, and prayed the simple prayer in today's verse. Jehoshaphat's prayer was answered. God told the people to march right in to the enemy's camp, singing and shouting praises on their way. Notice, they weren't worrying—they were worshiping—and God delivered them. Do you need a victory in your life? Then learn to worship instead of worry! A Prayer for Today God, You are truly the great God who is the Provider of everything we need, and much more. I want to be a worshiper instead of a worrier, so today I claim Your promise of deliverance from thoughts of fear or anxiety. Thank You for giving me the victory. In Jesus' Name. Amen.

Tuesday at Chucks

Today after school work I took my children to the new Chuck E Cheese. It's very nice. I like it alot more than the one that closed on Jefferson. They really enjoyed it & played & played. I thought they deserved some fun just BECAUSE I love them!!!! After that we came home and took naps. YES I tried to too. Mommies need rest too. Anyway after that I started dinner and then we were blessed with little baby Josiah coming to play with us this evening. He is such a happy baby and we had so much fun with him while his daddy and mommy took alittle "time out" and went to dinner & a movie. Our family had lots of fun with Josiah and were so happy we got to spend time with him. He is such a good baby and such a sweet personaility. UGH it is after 1 am now. I couldn't sleep awhile ago but now I can't wait for my head to hit the pillow. I was up late trying to start up my Lia Sophia business again.....and everything in the computer was doing it's own thing. Now after finally working that through I *think* I have it together and I am so ready for bed. May anyone reading this have a blessed Wed. THOUGHT FOR TODAY~~~ Feelings of inferiority can either crush and paralyze an individual or provide tremendous emotional energy which powers every kind of success and achievement. Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because GREATER IS HE IN YOU, than he that is in the world. I John 4:4 ~~~~THANK YOU JESUS~~~~~~~~~~~~

Monday, Monday

Today was actually a pretty great Monday! YIPEE! I woke up and actually remembered that today started my walk to Jerusalem. Well I did remember but it was AFTER I walked to the bathroom, got dressed, walked downstairs to make coffee, walked back upstairs to get ready to do my quiet time. That surely was 10,000 steps lost right there!!! lol! Truly though..at least I did remember to put my pedometer on before I got ready for bed this evening!! lol. I am really happy I remembered though. It wasn't the best start but I am so happy I started and it is important to me to do this so I am really happy about this. Anyway, after my quiet time with Jesus and doing a day of my Vic. Frazzled my Bishop "Bunch" & I had breakfast and then did our curr. work. Since today was a day off for the Minooka schools after we completed our Monday assignments I invited 3 of our neighbor children to come with me and my children and go to Skatewest to skate from 1 till 4 pm. The children had a blast and while we were walking in I saw Laura Breda coming in too to take her daughter Mackendzie to a birthday party there. It was so nice to see Laura. It just made me feel "warmth" and like a place "I knew"....a friend. Anyway, I didn't want to keep Laura long cause I know she wanted to spend time with the other moms there for the birthday party...but I do want to keep Laura in my prayers. I didn't realize that she hasn't moved yet to where Pastor Jason's new position is and I just cannot imagine how hard it is for Laura here...selling a home with her 3 little girls and her husband out of town. She is such a sweet person. I want to keep her close in prayers. When we came home from skating I felt like cooking a really nice dinner. It MUST be because I started my day with Jesus cause usually by 5pm I am drained. Anyway, I really wanted to cook something nice so I made Chicken Parmesan over angel hair pasta with a awesome salad and yummy garlic bread. My children raised up and called me "blessed"....OH NO...that's NOT ME....that's the Proverbs 31 women!!!! Well, my children and Les did tell me several times what an awesome dinner I made and Elizabeth even said...."mom I know you worked hard to make this meal so nice, thank you for putting in all that effort." Now HOW NICE WAS THAT!!!!!! It's like all around today I got blessed even in praises and I am so sure it is because I tithed my day to Jesus and gave Him the best part of my day. The FIRST PART. It's almost 10pm now and I am tired. I was going to run around my area 300 times....to add points to my walk to Jerusalem but, instead I think I will lay back and count sheep for our Shepard. All things matter to God. lol. Thank you Lord for this day and for showing me even the little effort I made to be with you today ..you blessed in BIG WAYS. I am so thankful you "get" me and you love me. I am blessed!

Girls & Giggles

Tonight was the 1st night of my 3 part "get together" called Girls & Giggles. Since I am on our MOPS steering team....I thought it would be nice to get THREE MOPS tables together each week for 3 weeks. "Sister tables" 3 sister tables in each group and have snacks and watch a Christian Comedy video. Tonight I invited Rolling Hills, Mountain Air & Fresh Breeze sister tables. Cindy, Tammy & Melissa came. We had a blast. We ate snacks talked for an hour and a half and then watched Christian artist Anita Renfore DVD called "purse-onality" that was another hour and a half. We laughed alot. Then we talked for another 45 or so minutes and then we called it a night. It was alot of fun and I am very thankful for the ladies who came. I hope they had a fun evening. I know my heart was blessed by them spending time with me tonight laughing and of course EATING!!!! Oh yes...and drinking COFFEE....the Christian drug of choice!!! Nice night, lots of laughs, good friends, good fellowship and yummy snacks. What girl could ask for more then awesome girlfriends!!! Thanks Jesus, my heart has been blessed!

The Real Me

I love this song....... I always have and think I always will...... it is when I can't find the words that I can just slowly sing song these lyrics to my Lord and they are my hearts cry. They are me...the REAL ME The Real Me by Natalie Grant Foolish heart, looks like we're here again. Same old game of plastic smile, Don't let anybody in. Hiding my heartache, Will this glass house break? How much will they take before I'm empty? Do I let it show? Does anybody know? CHORUS: But You see the real me. Hiding in my skin, broken from within. Unveil me completely. I'm loosening my grasp, There's no need to mask my frailty Cause You see the real me. Painted on, life is behind a mask, Self-inflicted circus clown. I'm tired of the song and dance, Living a charade, always on parade. What a mess I've made of my existence. But You love me even now And still I see somehow... CHORUS Wonderful, beautiful is what you see When You look at me. You're turning the tattered fabric of my life Into a perfect tapestry. Oh, I just wanna be me, I Just wanna be me. CHORUS and you love me just as i am. wonderful, beautiful is what you see when you look at me.

STOP the world!!

Life is good!!! Life is very, very good. So many times though there is so much....so much to do,

so much to think about, so much going on, so much wondering. SCREECHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

STOP THE WORLD!!!!!!!! (maybe I want to get off)

Yesterday at our MOPS group we had a speaker KERI WYATT KENT. We heard her speak before and she is wonderful. She is the author of many books and just seeing the titles of her

books brings such a peace to my anxious heart. Books like "BREATH" "OXYGEN" "LISTEN" what simple, peaceful and beaytiful words to my soul, my spirit ...my heart.

Even the ONE WORD titles give my busy mind and heart a vacation, a peace, a quietness.

Keri is a wonderful speaker and she really was a blessing to my heart yesterday. As I said

before in this little "BLOB BLOG" nothing really "bad" is happening...but, I feel like I anxiously am waiting for the "other shoe" to fall. Maybe it is the anxiouness I feel about our church family, maybe it is being worried about my mom & dad. It could be that I think I am missing God's path for my life. That I am not the mommy that I really want to be....the gentle one,

with loving arms and NO FLAWS so I don't mess up my babies....my gifts that God has sweetly given me. It could me that I am not the wife I know my husband deserves. I mean I AM the wife he deserves (he loves me very much and I love him lots & lots & lots....marrying him

was so much better then me winning BIG MONEY in the lotto!!!!! I mean that!) but AM I

the wife he "deserves"....am I his helpmate, am I submissive, do I honor him enough, RESPECT HIM enough, let him lead the home.....let him stand before God for his family? I think these

are the things that make my heart anxious. When I see things that my friends, my church family, people I love are going through.....I honestly want to endure it for them, or STOP

things for them. Make everything right, endure that pain....ghet them through the difficulty.

I don't understand. I know though that God does. That means alot. That brings me comfort.

Now as my children are running around, the doorbell is ringing, someone is standing in the refrig and my phone is playing a "tune"........I am going to get going with my day and

BREATH

take in some QXYGEN

and

LISTEN

Thank you Keri! THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!!!!!