A night of laughs

Last night Les & I went on a date night at Judson church with some friends. Cindi Goron arranged it and I am so thankful she did. I really like Cindi and it's so fun to be around her. We had a wonderful time with the other 3 couples that were at our table and we laughed and laughed. It felt so good to laugh. It felt so good to be with friends. It felt so good to know that the people we were with loved God too. Lately, I have been getting so lost in "my purpose"...lost in the fact that I don't really make a difference at all. I do nothing that someone else couldn't just step in and do and probably even do better. So, it felt so good to just let that go and laugh and not wonder why or worry that I am no doing enough, that I am not making enough of a difference. I so enjoyed last night. I just feel right now "lost"...kinda like the TV show of the same name that I only watched once cause it bothered me that they were LOST. I think part of it is because I lost control but haven't turned all control over to God. So I don't have control and I haven't given God control (surrender truly) and so I really am LOST. I feel very VERY alien lately........and it makes matters worst what is going on at our church now because that was the one place I felt my Christian family and a bond and the hand of Jesus and now I feel lost there too. So I really needed the night of laughs last night, more than I even knew I needed it. Thanks to Cindi so much for thinking of us. It blesses my heart and I really enjoyed sharing the evening with Sherrie and Gerriann too. Lost...but laughing!